Follow the LOVE - out into public

Happy Valentines Day!

I didn't mean to post such a depressing blog (Life insurance) on such a day filled with love.... oops! So here is the other exciting thing happening:

 I think the blog needs to be public.

Let me explain why:
1st - I'm out of room to add people. If you make it private, you can only invite 100 people to read it ... and we are maxed out. Because you love us!!! And we love you too!!! How awesome is that?!?!? I'm totally amazed because I thought that number was plenty high - we wouldn't have to worry about reaching it forever!
2nd - and almost equally important.......I had some explaining to do. To my students. You see - the reason I made this blog private is to have some separation between my students, their parents, and my private life. However.... then came last Tuesday.

 I was in a class filled with students when the phone rang. The students heard me say "hello."  They then heard the panic in my voice when I repeated Michelle (our nurse's) name over and over as I realized Alexander was so severe she couldn't talk to me. They heard me shout, "call 911!"  "I'm on my way!"  They saw me grab my purse and leave everything else and run out the door. I left a Nikon camera sit out on my desk. I left the computer open. I left my jacket..... and I ran out of the building.

No matter what my issues were with privacy - these students deserved to know how things were. I know they care - you can see it on their faces. So I told them about Alexander's seizure and our stay in Hershey.  I asked them if they had questions.... and, believe it or not, they did. Heartfelt questions - like

"Is Alexander still doing the same things he was before the seizure? Are we adjusting his medicine? How are the twins with what goes on? and... How do you deal with it all?"

This last question was something I recently blogged about - so I decided in the spur of the moment - to read to them my blog post from Monday.  I omitted a few phrases but basically read them my fears. I then put my blog post from Wednesday on the board.  I was afraid to read it out loud... that I might cry. In fact, several students did cry. Many of my students came to see me later in the day to tell me they find our story inspiring. I don't strive to be inspiring. I strive to be inspired. There are many people who inspire me... I feel like I'm just muddling through.
BUT..... What if our story of loving and living in the times of plenty and the times of need does inspire someone? I believe God will lead me in the right direction. No.. I don't want students to read what is on here - but if they do... is it the end of the world?  Maybe it would have been for a reason?  Maybe they were struggling too and needed some reassurance that even the most "put together" people still have doubts and fears. 

So..... after much internal debate.... I'm going public again. with my private thoughts. Because even my most private thoughts are not all that bad and I feel this is the right thing to do.

Besides - We've reached our limit on Blogger Readers, but we have not reached our limit on LOVE to share. 
We love you all!