I'm not afraid of Death

The Rapture didn't happen. I'm going to tell you all a secret, I was never worried about it. 
1. I didn't really believe it was going to happen.
2. I didn't care if it did.  There - the truth is out - I do not care if the world ends.

So I didn't follow all the talk about when it was going to end., I didn't know what time it was supposed to end, and I didn't know who originated the idea that it was going to end yesterday.
Because it really makes no difference to me.  I'm headed to heaven. Rapture or no rapture - I'm planning on going to meet my maker at some point.  If you are confident in your faith ~ then why waste minutes thinking about the end of the world? The end could be next week, but I could die tomorrow and never see it.

I couldn't help but chuckle at all the people who seemed (either seriously or sarcastically) relieved when 7:01 hit and the world continued to turn. I smiled as the question popped into my head, "Did anyone ever say what time zone the end would happen in?  I mean... what if we think we are safe but the rapture was to be at 7:00 mountain time?

I wasn't going to acknowledge all this "End of the World"  fervor that has surrounded this past week. However,  I think it would be very difficult to be a teenager when people start talking the end of times.  Teenagers are known for "searching" in general.... this just sort of adds another layer of stress.  Many people came to me this past week - looking for an answer I could not give the.  I can't tell someone else what to believe in.  I can't force someone to change their beliefs.  But I can tell you this:
I believe God created me and put into place the pieces for Raymond and I to meet and fall in love.  I believe that our children are gifts from God and probably a blessing for my salvation.  My children have made me Holy. I believe that when I die I will be reunited with my family in heaven.I don't know what Heaven will look like - only that it will be awesome.  I like to imagine my Pap as a man larger than life in the 1980's.  I wonder if he will view me as a child or if he would rather see me as an adult.  There are so many questions.  But these questions are futile - because the end answer to all questions about heaven is: it will be amazing beyond our dreams.  I'm not hanging my head and waiting for death to take me.  But the truth is, I'm not afraid of death.  My death would be a hardship - but only on Ray and the kids.
This life is great. I plan to live it until its fullest.  But when my time comes, I am ready.  God and I have made peace and I plan to see him in my later life.
The date of rapture does not concern me.  I Will live this life until I must move on, and when I move on I plan to live "forever" to the fullest.  I am not afraid of death.  It is just a bridge to life eternal.